23. From Fear to Alignment: Trusting Your Intuition & Soul Gifts - Descript

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This is the House of Andrea.

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I'm Andrea Lee Matthies, an artist,

photographer, and clairvoyant medium.

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And in this podcast, we explore what it

really means to thrive as a soul having

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a human experience, how to connect with

our energy, transcend those edges and

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boundaries that we create for ourselves.

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And open to the full

spectrum of who we are.

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If you're ready to see yourself

differently, to sense more deeply,

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and to expand into more of who you

are, you are in the right place.

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Let's dive in.

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Hello, and welcome back

to House of Andrea.

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I am your host, Andrea Lee Matthies.

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If you are new here, welcome.

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Welcome in to this space.

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It's always perfect timing

when you arrive in a new place,

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a new podcast, a new space.

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So I welcome you in.

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I'm so glad that you found your way here.

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And of course, if you have been here

for many, many weeks, months, years with

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me in this space, welcome back friend.

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I am so glad that you are here.

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Honestly, it is such a treat and

such a blessing to be able to show

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up and share with you every week.

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I thought this week that I would dive

into the concept of trusting ourselves,

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trusting our abilities, and coming back

to self, particularly because when you

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first start to step into your gifts,

step into your knowing and stepping

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into trusting your intuition and

trusting what is coming through to you.

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There can be so many wobbles,

there can be so many doubts and

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fears that come into the mind.

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And I, I speak with, I speak to

this with such, uh, authority and

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love because my journey of trusting

my gifts Was a bumpy one too.

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And it can be really tricky to

navigate the old paradigm of being

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in the logical mind, of being in the

tangible, what we can see, what we can

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experience, and trusting that as being

king, as being the thing that is real.

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And when we start to really.

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Unlock and step into a way of

being that is senses led, that

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is connection or knowing lead.

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It can be really confronting,

it can feel really inferior.

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And even although we've been.

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Perhaps connected to our intuition

or connected to this ability to

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perceive energy that is beyond what

we can see beyond the physical say.

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We can feel the emotions of others.

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We can feel the thoughts and feelings

from other people or from situations,

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or we receive signs or pieces of wisdom

that are way beyond the experiences

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that we've had in our lifetime.

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When we start playing in that

realm and receiving that.

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The mind can wanna fight that sometimes,

and the mind can wanna fight that

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because we are in a world that, you

know, up until recently, up until the

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last probably I'd say five or even

maybe 10 years, but the last five years

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particularly, and even more so, it's

rapidly becoming more acceptable now.

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But up until recently.

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Relying or even communicating with

others that you are someone that can

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pick up on things that are in the

invisible field or that are source

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given to you can feel really shameful.

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It can lead to a bunch of

questions that we hold within

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ourselves of, is this real or am I.

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In ulu, am I, am I gonna be accepted if

I tell people the truth about how I feel

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and where my ideas, my inspiration, my,

my knowing of this topic comes from?

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And quite often what happens is we get

given information, we get given wisdom,

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a feeling and insight about something.

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And then to be safe, we wanna go and

back it up with either education or

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research to find facts or, you know,

anecdotes or even reassurance from others.

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to validate what we already knew was true.

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And this is an old paradigm.

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It's an old pattern that society

has always relied on things to

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be true, things to be proven.

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We love to lean on science, and please

don't get me wrong, I love science.

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I love research.

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I love exploration.

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I love discovery that comes from.

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the science that exists in our world.

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but that is only part of the story.

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There's so much that exists in the

invisible field that we are constantly

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tapping into, but we've being conditioned

and trained to wanna reach for the

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science, to reach, for the fact to

validate what it is that we feel, what

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it is that we are saying or experiencing.

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To not make us stand out, to not make us

different because quite often when we have

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these incredible abilities, these gifts.

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They can feel inferior to others,

they can feel like a threat.

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You know, we only have to look at history

to look back and see the persecution

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that happened to those that were

different, to those that were gifted,

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that could see beyond the physical

plane into the energetic fields and as

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humans and with the different control

mechanisms and systems that were in

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place Fear was born in the hearts of

people and anyone that was different.

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Anyone that had these

abilities were rejected.

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They were considered a threat because

they weren't well understood, and we

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can carry all of this fear, even though

we're in this society now, where being

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intuitive, being empathic, actually

being tapped into source is way more.

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Mainstream accepted comment.

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Talked about, I mean, 10 years ago,

I wouldn't have been brave enough to

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have even had this podcast because

I was still operating in a lot of

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that fear of, what will they say?

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You know, 10 years ago I was in the,

the peak of my corporate career, I

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was a chief strategy officer here in

Australia contracting into, some of the

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top A SX companies here in Australia.

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And I was not prepared to risk

being rejected from that world

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based on the trajectory and

the career path that I was on.

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So I tamped down all of my gifts and

abilities and only allowed them out

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when I could show evidence or show.

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Data or science to back up the things

that I was already intuiting, the

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things that I was already seeing,

feeling, knowing to be true.

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I needed to find data and have

evidence to be able to show that

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I could do something in the world.

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And even if when I did use my gifts

and abilities, they were very much

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hidden under language that was socially

acceptable for the world at the time.

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But we are in such a different time now,

like there, there is a place for podcasts

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like this for conversations like this.

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Because this is becoming part

of our common vernacular.

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We're starting to realize that

as a human species, we are

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more than just a physical body.

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We are way more than just

this physical experience.

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And if you're new to this space, you'll

notice that I talk about this a lot.

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We are a source essence, a energetic

makeup, having a human experience

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in a human, physical warm.

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We are source that has rearranged

itself into atoms and matter.

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That is our physical body and we.

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Have this beautiful human experience

as source in this way, but there is so

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much more for us to tap into that we

are already tapping into that exists

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beyond us, and now is the time for us

to really start stepping into that.

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But I really understand what it can

be like to still carry the fear of

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being rejected, of being, you know,

expelled from your societal group,

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from your work, from your, social

structures that you have around you.

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Because not everybody is tapped

into this knowing, even although

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we are all of source, we are all

souls having human experiences.

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Not everybody is awake to that, and we

can fear those few that aren't tapped

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into it to judge us, to exclude us, to

reject us, and that can often hurt us

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more than being disconnected to ourselves.

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Just fearing being rejected or fearing

someone not understanding us can feel so

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much more scary And haunt us More than

the disconnect that happens when we are

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not tapped into our full essence, our soul

might be hurting and our soul might be

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wondering why we are not fully listening

to it, fully connected to it, and that

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that pain can build up in certain ways.

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But that is often we are

willing to sacrifice that.

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We're willing to have that

be part of our experience.

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To not be rejected.

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To not be isolated.

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And when we are stuck in this

cycle, it means that we play small.

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When it comes to our gifts, we might.

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Choose to only talk about it in certain

groups in certain circles, which means we

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open that part of ourselves in a certain

part of our day or a certain experience,

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but then we shut it down again.

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We tamp it down again to then go

back into the rest of our experience.

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But I wanna reassure you, we are

moving into a time now where we

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don't have to do that anymore on

every corner of the internet now.

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I'm so excited to see that we are

seeing conversations about this,

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about coming home to self, about

tapping into the essence and.

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That power of who we are, that

full expression of who we are, more

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and more and more, it's becoming

more acceptable and it's creeping

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into the common vernacular and

the common human experience more.

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You know, I had this girlfriend since

I was a child, a beautiful girlfriend,

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and I didn't think she was plugged

into this world, and so I kept.

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This part of myself to myself for the

longest years, decades and decades

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and decades is part of me this fully

plugged in powerful soul, intuitive I

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would very rarely talk to her about it.

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We talk about everyday stuff, you

know, family stuff, kid stuff, you know

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what's happening in the world, stuff.

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But never this, and I don't even know

how it came up, but something came

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up when we started talking about it.

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And she was like, oh yeah, you know,

like I, I got my first Oracle deck

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the other day and I was like, what?

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Like what?

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This is news.

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And all of a sudden I was like, well,

I've been doing this for decades now.

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You know, we are hidden in the

corporate world, but now you know,

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this is my world and this is the

work that I do and everything.

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And she's like, oh my God, I have no,

I had no idea as a child I've been.

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Seeing, you know, visions and spirits

and I'm being connected, but I've been

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too afraid to do anything until now.

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And so all of a sudden this friendship

that has been going since we were, you

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know, kindergarten, preschool level

has a whole new level now because

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we were brave enough to finally

claim and talk about who we are.

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Who, he has a soul level, and this

is happening more and more and more.

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And so if you're feeling afraid

to really own who you are,

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know that you're not alone.

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Know that there are spaces and

places within which you can

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come in and be your full self.

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Be in the full power of who you are,

because when you shut down who you are,

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when you kind of keep it in secret.

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You're really only living a small part

of the experience of the existence

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that you were born into and chose

to come here at this time to live.

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You're only living a part of it,

and I really do understand how loud

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that fear can get in your mind.

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How the fear of rejection

can cause you to freeze.

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It can cause you to stay silent.

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But when you stay in that place of

fear, you are limiting the potential of

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who you are that can come out into all

of the different areas of your life.

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Quite often when we stay quiet about

who we are as these incredible,

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powerful souls having this ex human

experience, when we only really express

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or let people into a part of that,

we are missing out on stepping into

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the full potential of who we are.

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I was stepping into the work, the

relationships, the experiences, the

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art, the creativity that lives within

us because we're still keeping it

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down under wraps, under a lid of

safety, of fear of what they will say.

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But it's it's keeping a lid on

you accessing the full power

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of what it is that you are here

to experience and to tap into.

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By saying, I'm only gonna talk about it

in this circles, or I'm only going to tap

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into my intuition in these circumstances

based on safety, limits, our creativity

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limits, what we can tap into, and

the potential that exists around us.

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We think that it's keeping the

lid on one thing and keeping

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us safe only in one space.

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But when we clamp down like that,

it's actually shutting us off to

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all of the other magic that exists.

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To the wisdom that sits in the ether

to the next program, you're meant to

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deliver the next art installation,

fashion design, musical masterpiece

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that you are meant to create.

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Because the gifts that are used to

express your soul in terms of your

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experience and your connection to

people in social situations are the

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same gifts that tap into those arenas

as well to make those creations.

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So staying in the fear of saying

and being who you are, which

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is that very human safety need.

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Is keeping you from the mission,

from the art, from the creations

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that you are here to create

because they are one and the same.

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So one of the most powerful

things that you can do.

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Is feeling the power, feeling the

essence, feeling the flame of your

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soul, of who you are and what it

is that you are here to create.

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Starting to feel that

within you and around you.

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Tapping into that more and more and

building trust with being able to

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express that building trust that you

can express that and still be safe.

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And here's the key thing.

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Sometimes, sometimes we need to let

go of situations of relationships,

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of people, of things, of ways

that we have always done things.

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We have to let them go to be able

to make STA space for us to be

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who it is that we're here to be.

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For us to be fully plugged into the

gifts and the creativity and the

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essence and the missions and the

purpose that we are here to live.

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We have to let go of certain situations

and people and expectations to

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make room for those other things.

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To actually be a viable,

real part of our existence.

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We have to let them go and that

can bring up so much sadness.

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It can be really painful to let

go of habits, of patterns, of

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people, of relationships, of loves.

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The things that make us feel safe

and secure, even when we know

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they're not the full experience.

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We are often in relationships.

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We're in work situations, careers.

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We are in dynamics that we, we

know there's something missing,

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there's something misaligned there.

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We know that on a deep level, but we love

them so dearly, or we are so attached

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to how they make us feel from a safe,

human need, human ego perspective,

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that we are not willing to let them go.

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We're not willing to let them

go, particularly if we can't

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see what's on the other side of

that letting go, and so we stay.

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Being just a part of ourselves to

be able to stay in that situation,

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to hold onto that status quo.

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That good enough that I might

not be able to be my full self,

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but at least this is kind of fun.

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Or at least this is

kind of, you know, safe.

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We hold onto that in sacrifice.

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Of how powerfully connected we could be

to ourselves to let new opportunities, new

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people, new loves of our lives, new work

that is so fulfilling and so connected

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and so creative in, we're too afraid to

let it go and we miss out on that stuff.

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But when we are brave enough

to move despite of the

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possibility of being rejected in.

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Honor of being whole, of honor, of

being fully connected to who we are.

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When we're brave enough to do that,

that's when the magic starts to unfold.

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That's when everything starts to

change and things become to move

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faster, fuel, deeper, be even.

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Even beyond our wildest of dreams,

and I love that expression.

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I remember hating it for years and years.

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I've been like, what does beyond

your wildest dreams even mean?

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Like sometimes I feel like

I barely even have a dream.

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I remember having these thoughts and

feelings back in the day, but now I under.

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Stand it because when you are fully

plugged in to the infinite power of

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what exists in the world around you

in energy and the infinite power

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that exists within you, you start to

realize life can change so rapidly.

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Incredible experiences can manifest

so quickly in your life That.

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It is actually beyond what you can

think of right now because our mind

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is confined by the knowledge of.

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What has existed for us up until

this point, or the things that

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we've seen or experienced or know

about, or learned about up until

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this point, like there's a limit.

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There's a construct around what we

think is possible, but when we start

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plugging into that full energy of

who we are and being brave enough to

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talk about, to express, to step into

and to own that we are incredible.

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Powerful energy that exists in this moment

and flows through all of these moments,

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all of a sudden you're like, whoa.

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I can feel, even if I can't

see it, that there is so much

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that exists beyond this for me.

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I can feel it.

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I don't know what it

is, but I can feel it.

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I know it.

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I can trust it, and I can move.

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I can move in full connection

with who I am knowing that.

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Everything is gonna change.

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Knowing that beyond my wildest dreams is

now possible and it's going to blow my

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mind 'cause it exists in the energy and

I'm being brave enough now to claim that.

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To make that part of me to decide with

intention, that living a life beyond my

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dreams, being fully plugged in, being

brave enough to own who I am, is what's

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gonna open the door to the life that.

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Is just incredible and

powerful and aligned.

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So if you are knowing that within you,

you have these gifts, you're playing all

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out in these gifts in some spaces, but

you are hiding it completely in others.

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Now is the time for you to start

bridging those two things to maybe

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look at where you need to move.

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You need to shift, you need to be

letting go of what isn't serving you.

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Maybe moving away from the situations

and the people that are keeping

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you in the fear-based state or

healing that fear enough that you

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can be brave enough to tell them.

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And like with my friend, once we started

having conversations around this, we

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realized both of us were hiding parts of

ourselves based on societal expectations

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that actually there's a whole new realm

through which we can connect with.

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Because when you tap into this,

this is when everything changes.

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You are meant to allow source to move

through you, whether it's through

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your voice, through your art, through

your creations, your experiences,

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through the interactions that you

have and the ways that you serve.

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You become more and more of you, more

tapped in to the unique version of you

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that is meant to be stepping forward

right now and everything is a baby step.

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Maybe there are some micro steps and some

micro changes, and maybe that's just one

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or two situations within which you start

to fully allow yourself to be revealed.

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But then that catalyzes bigger and

bigger and bigger moves and bolder

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moves, and before you know it, another.

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Months, days, years, you are going to be

way more connected to yourself and your

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life is gonna look completely different.

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But different in a way that you are

so deeply connected and so deeply

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in love with who you are, and your

gifts are just something else that

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you use today on a day-to-day basis

like they are breathing or blinking.

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They are just so ingrained in part of you

with such trust that it doesn't matter

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who it is, you don't hide them anymore.

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That is.

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A timeline and the reality that's waiting

for you when you start making these

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beautiful, intentional decisions to trust

who you are, to share who you are and to

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step forward as who you've always been.

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But this time everyone can see it.

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I love you.

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If you wanna go deeper on any of this,

if you need any support to help really

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stepping into this power of who you are.

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Remember The Encounter is

there, which is my seven day,

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beautiful, powerful immersion.

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When we go deep on your frequency, your

energy, your past lives, your soul.

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What your soul is calling for in your

future timelines, we can start to

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calibrate and open that to move forward.

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There's long-term coaching

containers as well.

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If you know you wanna go deep in this over

six or 12 months and change absolutely

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every area of your life through being

fully plugged into your energy and your.

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I'm here, reach out.

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These offers are opening and there's so

much more coming in this space as well.

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And of course The Channel is there where

I show up every day to just channel

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a message from the ether for you.

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So if you wanna be in that energy to just

see and witness and experience what it.

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Feels like to be in proximity with

someone who is fully trusting of their

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gifts, open about their gifts, and not

afraid to allow their gifts and who

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they are and their souls essence to

lead them and to be the forefront of

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who they are and It's completely free.

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So I love you.

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So much is coming.

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I will see you again this time

next week for another episode

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and have a beautiful week.