Podchaser Logo Rate on Podchaser

Episode 13

13. From Failure to Freedom: The Launch of House of Andrea

In this launch episode of the brand new name - House of Andrea - I share how the rebrand of this podcast nearly didn't happen - due to a failed video podcast recording. But what seemed like failure revealed something deeper: the need to overcome the pressure we put on ourselves to be visible, professional and “everywhere” online. We discuss ways self-worth becomes tangled with platforms, algorithms and performative success, and how to untangle from those old patterns. This conversation will help you return to the truth of your value.

Hot topics in this episode:

  • The behind-the-scenes story of my failed video podcast studio session
  • Why chasing YouTube, algorithms, or visibility doesn’t equal true success
  • The hidden patterns of self-worth and performative energy that keep us stuck
  • How to reframe “failure” as medicine that brings you back to what matters most

Want more?


Follow Andrea:

Instagram: @houseofandrea

Website: www.andimatthies.com


Spread the love:

If this episode resonates, please share it and leave us a rating or review. This helps us reach new listeners who are seeking more support on these topics.


More about House of Andrea:

House of Andrea is created by host Andrea Lee Matthies in Naarm (Melbourne), Australia. Andrea is an artist, photographer and clairvoyant medium who explores the intersections of creativity, spirituality and the human experience. Her art and conversations invite us into spaces of spiritual expansion — where we see ourselves more clearly and live more fully as our highest selves.

New episodes every Tuesday 6am AEST. Make sure to hit subscribe/follow so you never miss an episode!

This podcast is part of the Cherry Fizz Rebel Network.


For collaboration & interview bookings: Drop us an email at hello@andimatthies.com

Transcript
Speaker:

This is the House of Andrea.

2

:

I'm Andrea Lee Matthews, an artist,

photographer, and clairvoyant medium.

3

:

And in this podcast, we explore what it

really means to thrive as a soul having

4

:

a human experience, how to connect with

our energy, transcend those edges and

5

:

boundaries that we create for ourselves.

6

:

And open to the full

spectrum of who we are.

7

:

If you're ready to see yourself

differently, to sense more deeply,

8

:

and to expand into more of who you

are, you are in the right place.

9

:

Let's dive in.

10

:

Andrea Matthies: Welcome back to another

episode We are as of today, moving

11

:

into the podcast's brand new format.

12

:

The House of Andrea This

week has been huge, honestly.

13

:

in anticipation of this new shift.

14

:

There has been so much that has cracked

me§ open, and I thought, I wanna share

15

:

some of these things because there was

some really powerful medicine in here

16

:

this week that I've had to work through.

17

:

The first thing that I wanna share is

that I made the decision when we were

18

:

switching over to this new podcast format

that I wanted to potentially start running

19

:

a YouTube channel for this podcast.

20

:

So to start to show up on video as well.

21

:

And so I searched around the local

area and found a couple of podcasting

22

:

studios here in Melbourne and I actually

booked one for Friday, just gone.

23

:

And I've been thinking about

it all week, kind of really

24

:

contemplating like, what is it that.

25

:

I really want to shift into

around this new iteration of this

26

:

podcast, and I contemplated it

and I wrote lots of things down.

27

:

And in the morning on Friday morning,

I went for a beautiful walk around

28

:

and some incredible insight just

started to drop into my field.

29

:

And I started noting that down thinking

like, yes, I'm gonna get into the

30

:

the studio later this afternoon,

and I'm gonna start recording.

31

:

For the very first time with

a, a live video feed, and can

32

:

I tell you, it went terribly.

33

:

I hate saying that because we never, ever,

ever wanna fail, but it went terribly.

34

:

I got to the studio and it's absolutely

no shade on the studio at all.

35

:

It was professionally set up space.

36

:

It was, the people there were lovely.

37

:

The gentleman helped me

set everything up, but.

38

:

There was something that happened between

the, the morning when I was contemplating

39

:

all of the things that I wanted to pour

into the episode and how I was gonna show

40

:

up, there was so much unraveling of me

that happened over those hours between

41

:

that morning walk and getting into the

studio that just derailed everything.

42

:

So by the time I got to the studio

and the cameras got switched on,

43

:

the video feeds were set up it was

a really tight, small, dark space.

44

:

The lighting was a little bit off.

45

:

There were just a few subtle

things that kind of chipped away a

46

:

little bit of the confidence that

I was feeling coming into this.

47

:

And of course there is safety

that's created when you do

48

:

something that's really familiar.

49

:

So we've been running, uh,

the Bold, Brave Woman Project.

50

:

For three months now, and this

episode marks episode number 13, and

51

:

so there has been a certain level of

comfort, familiarity that I have built

52

:

around the podcast that it makes it

really easy for me to show up now.

53

:

In my favorite little studio spot to

record these audio based episodes, and

54

:

they feel joyful and they feel light.

55

:

But when I stepped into the studio on

Friday and all of a sudden there was

56

:

a three camera set up and spotlights

on the chair when I was sitting, and

57

:

I typically don't script my episodes

because I want them to come through more

58

:

conversationally and more organically.

59

:

It just threw me out because all

of a sudden I had gone from having

60

:

this beautiful space where I just

speak and channel and share and

61

:

connect with you to all of a sudden

just subtly flipping into this

62

:

performative, presentable type energy.

63

:

And it's so interesting that this

happened because I used to work

64

:

with clients on helping them get

out of that performative mode.

65

:

Like everything that I taught at the

time was about authenticity and voice

66

:

and expression and being in your body.

67

:

And it is always so fascinating when the

things that we know that we talk about,

68

:

that we teach, we get into situations

and we just forget our medicine.

69

:

We forget all that medicine, all of

our advice, all of our tools, and it

70

:

triggers some of those raw things within

ourself that then come to the surface.

71

:

And we're grappling with those.

72

:

We're grappling with our feelings of

insecurity, of not enoughness, that just

73

:

stilts us and pops these little blocks

and difficulties in our way that it makes

74

:

it hard to just show up and be authentic.

75

:

And so I was sitting there and it

took me no word of a lie for the first

76

:

33 minutes of that one hour booking.

77

:

With the video feeds running and

the microphone's on me sitting

78

:

alone in this dark room, staring

into these cameras 33 minutes.

79

:

And all I could

80

:

do was say.

81

:

Hello and welcome back to the podcast

like 25 times because every time I said

82

:

it I was like, no, it's not welcome back.

83

:

'cause it's the new format and

oh, I looked weird when I said

84

:

that and Oh, that felt strange.

85

:

Or, oh, what do I say next?

86

:

Like, it was, it was wild guys.

87

:

Like for 33 minutes, I could

not get the content out.

88

:

And there was just so many other

things like the, the room that I

89

:

was in wasn't soundproofed from the

outside, but the mics were soundproofed.

90

:

So I could hear people outside, I

could hear street noise, I could hear.

91

:

Fire truck noises, people just

humming and going on the street

92

:

out the front, even though the

microphones weren't picking that up.

93

:

And the guy was like,

yeah, don't worry about it.

94

:

The microphones can't hear

it, so just ignore it.

95

:

It was all of a sudden I'm sitting

in there trying to get the opening

96

:

line right, and that's all I

could, that's all I could hear.

97

:

It was just, it was wild.

98

:

And at the 33 minute mark, I was

like, well, I have too choices.

99

:

I can either just bail and be like,

this is not for me creating this

100

:

podcast into a YouTube channel.

101

:

Like it's not my bag.

102

:

Or I could just talk about how

uncomfortable I am right now.

103

:

And so I spent the remaining 27

minutes recording an episode around

104

:

how uncomfortable, um, it is to just

sit in a darkened room and record

105

:

a podcast with cameras on you.

106

:

And that's how I spent the very

first hour of booking and recording

107

:

in a video podcast studio.

108

:

But what I think is really interesting

is the reasons why I thought I had

109

:

to be there in the first place.

110

:

And side note.

111

:

This episode that you're listening

to now is not that episode.

112

:

It's not the one that I

recorded in the studio.

113

:

The audio actually turned out to not be

great, and I will probably release that

114

:

episode as a B side, maybe down the track.

115

:

We'll see.

116

:

But what was really interesting was

the types of thoughts and feelings

117

:

that were going on in my mind.

118

:

And what they were indicating

in terms of some of those old

119

:

patterns and old conditionings

that were playing out for me.

120

:

And one of the things that was

really interesting is that at some

121

:

point I had convinced myself that

I had to have a YouTube channel,

122

:

and I had to have this podcast in

a talking to camera video format.

123

:

And this got me thinking

because we do this all the time.

124

:

We make these situations factual.

125

:

Like this idea that I have

to have a YouTube channel.

126

:

When I look at it from the external

zoomed out perspective, it's like, why?

127

:

Why is that?

128

:

Where have I picked that up?

129

:

Why have I made that real and gospel

and true, and why am I measuring myself

130

:

and my value in this space against,

whether I have a YouTube channel or not?

131

:

Like when we really zoom out and look

at ourselves, our energy, our lives,

132

:

what we are here to do, why is it

that all of a sudden it's so important

133

:

that I have this YouTube channel?

134

:

And it's interesting 'cause I was

thinking about how did this come about

135

:

for me that, that this became a deep

rooted belief and without it, the

136

:

podcast wasn't going to be successful.

137

:

And I think it's come from a

couple of different places.

138

:

One is a lot of experts will tell

you, and of course there's lots of

139

:

data and research and statistics

around that says those podcasts with a

140

:

video feed, it taps into two markets.

141

:

So you've got your YouTube

market, and your podcast market.

142

:

Amazing.

143

:

It's just a, an additional exposure tool.

144

:

I understand that.

145

:

And that is great, particularly if your

content leans towards a YouTube channel,

146

:

and it's interesting to watch the

person speaking and so on and so forth.

147

:

And the second thing I'd realized is that

this had come about in my mind because

148

:

there's this energy of I need to be

seen as an expert or as a professional.

149

:

To be taken seriously, and this

is a deeper problematic energy.

150

:

To feel like you have to show up

on a video feed and have a YouTube

151

:

channel to be taken seriously

that's something different.

152

:

That comes down to a self-worth issue.

153

:

And so it was really interesting that I'm

sitting in this podcast studio feeling all

154

:

these feelings, deciding to push through.

155

:

And at the end of the session,

when I hit stop and I walked out,

156

:

I felt like an absolute failure.

157

:

Yeah, because I'm a trained actor,

I'm used to being on camera.

158

:

I'm used to being on screens and stages.

159

:

I know how to deliver a podcast.

160

:

I know how to talk articulately

and clearly, I must be a failure.

161

:

All of a sudden I just started

feeling those feelings of

162

:

failure of I'm not good enough.

163

:

who was I to think that

I could even do this?

164

:

I thought that I had

skills of being on camera.

165

:

I clearly don't.

166

:

All of these familiar

narratives started to play out.

167

:

What can happen is those narratives can

run away with us, and all of a sudden

168

:

we, we feel depressed, we feel sad.

169

:

We start to believe them.

170

:

We start to feel them as

integrated into who we are.

171

:

But really what it was doing

was just showing me some things

172

:

that needed to be healed.

173

:

Some things that were ready to shift

because I don't wanna measure my value

174

:

and I don't want you to measure your value

against whether you have a YouTube channel

175

:

or whether you're showing up on social

media, or whether you have videos or not.

176

:

Your value and your medicine for

this world through your work through

177

:

just being you goes far beyond.

178

:

Whether you are showing up in an

Instagram or YouTube channel or not.

179

:

The beautiful opportunity here for

me was that I could start to unpick

180

:

where I have attached meaning to

things that are not really real.

181

:

Like creating meaning around YouTube

equals this, or Instagram equals this,

182

:

or a following equals this because

that's something else that's been

183

:

swirling around a little bit this week.

184

:

I've recently found out that my Facebook

account, it's been marked as a spammy

185

:

account, from something that happened

two years ago that wasn't even my fault,

186

:

but my account's being penalized, And I'm

gonna have to start over, which is fine.

187

:

Like I've made peace with that and I'm

excited to start something fresh and new.

188

:

But throughout the course

of this week, I had had this

189

:

internal debate with myself that.

190

:

Well if they are this feeling, it

wasn't even a debate, it was this

191

:

feeling in this internalization of,

well, if the algorithm doesn't think

192

:

my content is interesting, my art is

interesting If it's not being seen by

193

:

anyone, does it even have any value?

194

:

Is it even any importance.

195

:

And assigning meaning to that, it's

like, okay, it's time to just stop and

196

:

strip back to what's actually important.

197

:

And starting to realize that just

showing up in my authentic, full

198

:

expression in the way that makes sense

to me on the channels that bring me

199

:

joy, is so much more valuable to the

world than me trying ascribe to these

200

:

models of, well, if you're not on this

at this level, then you're nothing.

201

:

There are so many incredible people

throughout the world who have just

202

:

left such amazing marks and medicine

and art and discoveries into the

203

:

world without these channels that

we are now elevating up as king.

204

:

And I had a really great conversation

with a friend of mine this morning.

205

:

Shout out to Jas if he's listening,

but I was explaining to him, I'm

206

:

like, ah, somehow I've made YouTube

the all important part of my

207

:

strategy or the all important thing.

208

:

Somehow I've made Instagram the all

important thing and I feel like I'm a,

209

:

you know, a victim of blah, blah, blah,

like just all this outdated language.

210

:

And he just goes to me, he's like, I've

got word one, one word for you, Andrea.

211

:

And I'm like, what's that?

212

:

He goes, Banksy.

213

:

And I just laughed.

214

:

I was like, oh, you're right.

215

:

You know, Banksy is this amazing artist.

216

:

If you don't know,

Definitely look them up.

217

:

It's B-A-N-K-S-Y.

218

:

But Banksy is a street stencil

artist, that has been around for

219

:

decades now, and they're anonymous.

220

:

And nobody knows what they look like.

221

:

Nobody knows their identity, but their

art is profound and their art is prolific.

222

:

And I just thought it was so interesting.

223

:

Obviously Jason was not telling me

to become Banksy, but it was making a

224

:

really strong point in that we don't have

to show up in the ways that we think.

225

:

We have to show up.

226

:

We don't have to show up looking perfect,

staring down the barrel of a camera and

227

:

presenting something in a certain way.

228

:

If it's not our vibe, if it's not

for us or, encapsulating our magic.

229

:

If it's not our style, then

we don't have to do it.

230

:

There are so many other pathways and

ways, and it's so much more important for

231

:

us to show up in the way that we sparkle

and we shine, and we just feel at ease.

232

:

So I've decided today to just go

down to the usual place where I

233

:

record these voice only episodes.

234

:

And rerecord the first episode for this

new iteration of the House of Andrea,

235

:

because this is where I am most in my

power in connection to my expression.

236

:

This is where I can just.

237

:

Bring in what needs to be said to

share with you in the moment as it

238

:

flows through and as it happens, and

it just feels so easeful and it feels

239

:

so much more authentic than me worrying

about how I'm sitting and how I'm

240

:

looking and, and all of those things.

241

:

And yes, of course they can be trained.

242

:

I have trained so many people in

those techniques, which is, wow.

243

:

Do you think that I

would be perfect at it?

244

:

These are the things when we are

dealing with our own conditioning,

245

:

they sometimes pop up and present

new challenges to us to to have to

246

:

work through, and it's such a gift.

247

:

But right now, the most powerful

identity and archetype and

248

:

expression that I wanna be in.

249

:

Is art first is message first is channeled

first, and for me right now that is in

250

:

the creative process of creating art, of

painting, of doing all of my mixed media

251

:

stuff that is in the magic of sitting

here and just expressing what needs to be

252

:

expressed, sharing, channeling, listening.

253

:

just sharing this with

you in conversation.

254

:

That is the magic right now for me,

and I'm deciding to make that enough.

255

:

And that gets to be enough, and

we know that that is enough.

256

:

Deep down in our souls, we

know that that is enough.

257

:

We just add in all these extra

layers of expectation and

258

:

judgment over the top of that.

259

:

That makes us act in different ways,

makes us feel like we need to do things

260

:

differently, but it starts to dilute who

we are and and it means we don't show

261

:

up as authentically as we could because

we're just trying to fit the norms or

262

:

execute perfect marketing strategies

based on what's worked for others.

263

:

And here's the thing, Sometimes things

are difficult because we're new at them

264

:

and it is simply a, a moment of growth

where we are not good at something.

265

:

We need to practice it.

266

:

We need to allow the skill

to develop over time.

267

:

That feels very different to

showing up and something being

268

:

difficult because it's misaligned.

269

:

They might sound like they would feel

the same, but they actually don't.

270

:

The energy of it is very

subtle and very different.

271

:

And you'll feel this in your body when

you show up to something, say you wanna

272

:

learn a new skill like painting, right?

273

:

And you show up and you've got your

paint brushes and your paint and

274

:

everything's set out there, and you're

going through the motions of dipping

275

:

the paint and applying it to the

paper and it keeps coming out wrong.

276

:

That is.

277

:

Yeah, that can be a really frustrating

process, but there is a feeling

278

:

that surrounds that, that is just

like, I don't know what I'm doing.

279

:

This is hard.

280

:

I just don't have the skills.

281

:

Like that is a very different, equally

frustrating, but different feeling

282

:

to, I feel like I'm showing up and

doing this painting because my mom

283

:

or my dad is a painter and they're.

284

:

There's a belief that I have within

me that I should be a painter too,

285

:

but this just feels like I just

don't, I really, I'm not interested.

286

:

I don't wanna do this.

287

:

I'm doing this because of

expectational, because I have to.

288

:

That is a very different energy to,

I just don't know what I'm doing.

289

:

I'm lost, I'm out of my depth.

290

:

This doesn't feel good because

I don't understand stand.

291

:

You can feel that, right?

292

:

Like they're very different energies

and I'm realizing that with this

293

:

video, podcasting pressure, it

was very much the second one

294

:

where I'm like, I should be here.

295

:

This is what all good successful podcast

is to, this is what I have to do to get my

296

:

name out there and to be, to be famous and

rah, like all of this internal dialogue

297

:

that I've picked up and made Gospel.

298

:

That is very different to, I'm

just uncomfortable in front

299

:

of the camera because I'm not

uncomfortable in front of a camera.

300

:

I can be in front of a camera

easily in so many other contexts.

301

:

But when it came to the podcast,

it was such a subtle difference.

302

:

But it wasn't until I got into

the studio and put myself into the

303

:

situation that I realized that.

304

:

And this is where pushing

ourselves outside of our

305

:

comfort zone can be so powerful.

306

:

Like I am so grateful that I

was brave enough to book the

307

:

studio, to to pay the investment.

308

:

You know, here in Australia, booking

spaces in podcast studios, it's expensive.

309

:

But I'm so grateful to myself that I

was willing to make the investment too.

310

:

To sit there for 33 minutes

and not be able to get past the

311

:

opening couple of sentences,

feeling like a complete failure.

312

:

Like I'm so grateful for that experience,

for me to be able to feel the energy and

313

:

know the difference between what is just.

314

:

It's new and what is misaligned, And this

can be so helpful to just pause and think

315

:

about if there's something in your life

at the moment, especially something new

316

:

or something that your soul is calling you

to do and it's feeling really difficult.

317

:

Feel into that difficulty.

318

:

Go into the the energy of it,

the emotion of it, and just

319

:

allow yourself to go under it.

320

:

It's like visualize yourself.

321

:

Ducking underneath the discomfort and

saying, is this just because it's new?

322

:

And I like, you know, I have a perfection

streak, or I like to do things that

323

:

come easy to me because it's safer and

I don't have to put myself out there.

324

:

Like, is this energy discomfort

because this is new and I

325

:

don't know what I'm doing?

326

:

Or underneath that energy, is

it because I know I'm trying

327

:

to be someone that I'm not for?

328

:

Circumstantial or external

reasons, and this is what this

329

:

opportunity is showing me.

330

:

And so what I've decided to do, now

that I have some awareness around

331

:

this energy, is Not put this podcast

into an official YouTube channel.

332

:

Like, I'm not going to create, I'm

not gonna record these episodes

333

:

speaking directly into the lens of

the camera, perfectly articulate,

334

:

to just have a YouTube channel,

like I'm not going to do it.

335

:

That is not the purpose of this podcast.

336

:

This podcast is all about having real

conversations and right now the way that

337

:

I can do that is just by doing it the

way that I've been doing it and pouring

338

:

everything that I am into it, I might

take the audio and put some visuals

339

:

over it just so that I can upload it

to YouTube so that it is accessible for

340

:

those that prefer that as a channel.

341

:

And I might even use my art and my,

some of my AI animation stuff to make

342

:

those images really beautiful to look

at or glance at as you're listening.

343

:

But I'm not going to try and.

344

:

contort myself to be something

that I don't really want to.

345

:

I'm gonna be a little bit Banksy

esque, which I don't mind.

346

:

And I've also decided that, uh,

instead of battling this terrible

347

:

health score and these old accounts

that I have across Facebook and

348

:

Instagram, I'm just gonna close 'em.

349

:

I'm just gonna close them and

start a couple of new brand

350

:

new independent, fresh feeds.

351

:

One that is just sharing all of

my beautiful art and all of the

352

:

things that are coming through me

in terms of creativity, in terms of

353

:

expression, in terms of the channeled

messages that need to be shared.

354

:

And I'm gonna have a separate,

um, feed 'cause there's some

355

:

AI animation stuff that I wanna

do with some inspirational or.

356

:

With some activating type energy

over the top, and I'm, I'm gonna

357

:

create that because I'm listening

to what my soul is telling me.

358

:

And this is what's so important.

359

:

So often we get into our head around

executing strategy, particularly if

360

:

we're following interesting mentors or

people online who are like, I did this

361

:

and it made me a million dollars, or

Here's my five step guaranteed plan to.

362

:

That I would do to build my business

from scratch again, or here's what

363

:

works in terms of digital products

or this or that, this or that.

364

:

It's so easy for us to listen and

follow their instructions to a T,

365

:

but we have to have discernment

around which of those things.

366

:

Are great from a strategic perspective

to get me where I wanna go in alignment

367

:

with who I am and how I wanna show up.

368

:

There's been so many Instagram mentors

and courses and things that I have

369

:

signed up for to increase my skills.

370

:

Again, that discomfort around skills.

371

:

I didn't know how it works and so I had

that discomfort because I didn't know, I

372

:

didn't understand how the platform works

and the best types of performing content.

373

:

But I have signed up to those courses

and tried to execute them A to Z

374

:

Exactly as they recommended with

their trending audio, with their

375

:

type of B roll format to film it.

376

:

Exactly.

377

:

And it was really difficult because

I didn't want to show up in that

378

:

way, not out of fear of being seen.

379

:

But just because it's not my vibe,

I'm realizing that understanding

380

:

our vibe is such an important piece.

381

:

We usually put ourselves

to the side or to the back.

382

:

We think of ourselves as secondary

to what is right or how it should

383

:

be, but really understanding our

vibe, how we show up, how we shine.

384

:

Is so, so important and filming B

roll, or, you know, doing certain

385

:

actions or mouthing trending audio

that is brilliant for so many

386

:

people whose vibe matches that.

387

:

But when I did it, it felt performative.

388

:

It felt fake.

389

:

And so a lot of the advice around,

uh, how to make your reels go viral or

390

:

show up a certain way on social media.

391

:

It didn't apply at the end

of the day because it's not

392

:

my vibe, it's not my energy.

393

:

It's not how I thrive.

394

:

I thrive by making art and bringing down

little poetic pieces of captions to go

395

:

over that art to help activate something

within whoever is going to see that.

396

:

Like, that's where I thrive.

397

:

I love recording the podcast in this way,

in this intimate moment, just speaking

398

:

to you and recording it that way.

399

:

Like a camera in my face, just so that

you can see how good I look, wink,

400

:

wink, uh, it's not, it's not helpful.

401

:

It's, it's not, it's not my vibe

and I'm the hardest part of this is

402

:

giving ourselves permission to just.

403

:

Be accept, love our vibe, how we

are who we are, our energy, and keep

404

:

reassuring ourselves that it's enough.

405

:

Over this last week, so

many deep, personally deep

406

:

triggering things I've happened.

407

:

It's been a wild rollercoaster this week.

408

:

I've had trauma release work done

on my body, which has just had these

409

:

massive outpourings of grief and tears.

410

:

there were things that haven't

worked out that I was really hoping

411

:

would work out, and there was other

things that have worked out but are

412

:

taking me in a different direction.

413

:

It's has been a rollercoaster of a week,

and so it's so easy for ourselves to

414

:

lose ourselves in these moments when

we are torn in different directions,

415

:

when we're feeling all the feels,

when we go to show up and follow the

416

:

expert advice based on who we think

we should be, and then it fails.

417

:

It can be really.

418

:

Heavy.

419

:

And so it's so important for us to just

have this place within ourselves that we

420

:

can come back to and be like, I feel most

myself when I'm doing this in this way.

421

:

I feel most myself when I am

connecting with people like this.

422

:

Like for me, I'm realizing that I love

deep conversation one-on-one, and I think

423

:

this is why I love podcasting because

it's just me and you at the kitchen

424

:

table having a cup of tea, having a chat.

425

:

That's, that's what I see us

doing when I'm recording this.

426

:

Whereas you put me in a massive.

427

:

Noisy environment with a big group,

and I'm having to try and hold

428

:

multiple containers of space with

multiple individuals all at once

429

:

with noise and other stuff coming in.

430

:

Like I don't love that as much.

431

:

I can, I can definitely do it and

adapt to it, but it's not my vibe.

432

:

It's not where I thrive.

433

:

And so really understanding these nuances

of our power, of how we show up are so

434

:

beneficial because it helps us determine.

435

:

How we wanna exist in the world,

particularly if we have something that we

436

:

wanna do that is in service of others or

is to be in the public arena where we need

437

:

to be present and ourselves and showing

up more and more and more understanding.

438

:

Who we are and our, I keep using

the word vibe, but our energy, our

439

:

essence, where we feel most at ease.

440

:

Understanding that is so powerful

because then we can craft the channels

441

:

and the ways that make the most sense.

442

:

And the thing that always plays

on my mind, and you might be

443

:

questioning it too, is like.

444

:

But what if we go against

the strategy of the experts?

445

:

Does that mean we're gonna fail?

446

:

Or does that mean that our stuff isn't

gonna perform as well as if we were to

447

:

execute the proven popular strategy?

448

:

And it's such a common question or

contemplation that we can battle, but as I

449

:

get deeper into this work and I experiment

with more things and start to really play

450

:

with the energetics behind showing up in

authenticity and being who we are here

451

:

to be, I'm realizing that there are an.

452

:

Infinite amount of ways

for us to be successful.

453

:

There are an infinite amount of ways

in which we can connect to others.

454

:

It's just that there are some

particular strategies that get elevated

455

:

up as being the ones for a certain

characteristic or mainstream type of

456

:

person, but they don't apply to everyone.

457

:

And just because they don't apply to

those few that it doesn't apply to

458

:

doesn't mean that we can't be successful.

459

:

It doesn't mean that we

can't be in our magic.

460

:

We just have to find the way to show

up that is in our essence, because

461

:

when we are in our power, when we are

in our essence, our work, our message

462

:

gets amplified because it's magnetic.

463

:

And this is the thing that I'm realizing

is the most important is our magnetism.

464

:

And magnetism comes from authenticity.

465

:

It comes from believing in ourselves,

trusting ourselves, that we are enough.

466

:

Because as soon as we tell

ourselves that we're enough, it

467

:

creates this frequency of trust.

468

:

It's like a pulsing that people feel.

469

:

When someone walks into the room and

they are not just confident, 'cause

470

:

confident is definitely valuable and

powerful, but when they are in their

471

:

essence, when they are in their ness,

the ness of who they are, that is a

472

:

whole different level of frequency.

473

:

And you'll know this.

474

:

You will have experienced this so many

times where someone walks into the room

475

:

and they know who they are and they love

who they are, and they just emanate this

476

:

self-love, this kindness, this power.

477

:

There's authenticity.

478

:

And I'm not talking about fake

confidence or bravado or ego led energy.

479

:

I'm talking about oneness and selfness.

480

:

This magnetism that radiates and you

can't help but wanna go over and be

481

:

around them or ask them questions

or hear what they have to say.

482

:

It's like they pull you in and and

that's because they're connecting

483

:

with you on a certain frequency.

484

:

There's a piece within you, a

unique piece within you that

485

:

recognizes the peace within them

that wants to connect on that level.

486

:

And so you get drawn in, you

become curious, you ask questions,

487

:

you wanna be around them.

488

:

That is where the power is.

489

:

And we can only get to that

power by understanding who we are

490

:

and what is easeful what is in

alignment, what is perfect for us

491

:

to show up in in that frequency

and then be brave enough to do it.

492

:

Be brave enough to say thank you.

493

:

I hear that strategy.

494

:

I see that that's worked.

495

:

I can see that that's a popular

approach to take, but I can feel in

496

:

my bones that that is not aligned.

497

:

I'm gonna go down this pathway

instead because this is gonna be

498

:

the fire within my soul that's

going to increase my magnetism.

499

:

That is what is the most important

piece in showing up in who we

500

:

are, and that's what the House

of Andrea I'm realizing is about.

501

:

It's about accepting my vibe and

accepting who you are so that we

502

:

can show up in our own authenticity,

in our own power, become our own

503

:

houses of the essence of who we are.

504

:

And that's why when I reflected over

the weekend about this whole podcast,

505

:

studio failure and YouTube channel

and pressure to show up on certain

506

:

social media in a certain way and

have X amount of followers, I was

507

:

like, oh, none of that is necessary.

508

:

Because what I need to do is

come back to the magnetism that

509

:

is me, and own that and just.

510

:

And allow that to be enough.

511

:

Allow the way that I podcast to

be enough and trust that you and

512

:

whoever else needs to find this and

connect with me, we will be here.

513

:

We will be in this conversation together

because it's meant to be and allow that

514

:

medicine to be enough in the world.

515

:

So if you're listening to this and you

are battling, any kind of assumption

516

:

around, oh, I need to do something a

certain way, or I need to play in a

517

:

certain way, or be, or show up or do

my job in a certain way, because that

518

:

is either the expectation or what's

worked for someone else in the past.

519

:

Take the parts that are for you there.

520

:

Take the parts that align, that you

vibe with that feel really good and

521

:

just let the rest go and do it your way.

522

:

Because it's amazing how the universe

starts to open doors and opportunities

523

:

where we step into that authenticity.

524

:

Even this week, even amongst all of

the heaviness, there have been some

525

:

mind blowing, incredible opportunities

that have come through the door

526

:

that are unfolding, and I'll share

those as they start to develop.

527

:

But there's been some mind blowing

opportunities just from being brave

528

:

enough to show up in a space as me

not pretending to be anything else.

529

:

And I just said yes.

530

:

Like I didn't even know why, but in

my soul I was like, just say yes.

531

:

That's the power of showing up in our

vibe, in who we are and just allowing

532

:

ourselves to go on the journey of

discovery of where we are meant to go.

533

:

'Because your soul will always.

534

:

Always, always, always keep directing you

towards the magic that you're here for.

535

:

I love the saying, if it's

meant for you, it'll find you.

536

:

I believe that to my core.

537

:

Even in those moments where you feel

lost, where it feels dark, where it

538

:

feels heavy, where you just feel like

you can't go on or you don't know what

539

:

you want, you don't know who you are.

540

:

Even in those moments,

there is medicine there.

541

:

There is a part of your soul that is

speaking to you to clear out a whole bunch

542

:

of stuff so that what is meant for you,

can find you, because it will find you.

543

:

It's not a, and I, I

even wanna reframe that.

544

:

It's not, can find you.

545

:

It's that it will find you.

546

:

It just makes it easier because you're

clearing this stuff out of the way.

547

:

So I'm really excited to see how

this new space unfolds, this new

548

:

energy of the house of Andrea.

549

:

I'm gonna be varying some of

the podcast types as well.

550

:

I might even do some walking

episodes because some of the most

551

:

incredible transmissions drop in

when I'm in conversation with Spirit.

552

:

When my body is moving, particularly

when I'm walking in nature.

553

:

So I'm gonna experiment with a few

different formats around walking episodes.

554

:

I also got given this vision, and I don't

know what format it's gonna take yet, but

555

:

I'm really excited to see what happens.

556

:

But I'm thinking of having

a episode format where.

557

:

You can see me being in conversation with

Spirit, so rather than talking to you like

558

:

I love to do in these particular episodes.

559

:

I am going to do some live conversation

with Spirit type episodes where I'm posing

560

:

questions to them and then receiving

and verbalizing the responses so you

561

:

can hear what it looks like to be in

conversation and receive channeling live.

562

:

Look, they might be interesting.

563

:

They might not be, but

we have to try, right?

564

:

We have to try.

565

:

So I'm gonna do that as well.

566

:

And of course, I'm going to be creating

the YouTube channel to have these

567

:

audios available there using some

of the graphics of my AI animations

568

:

and my art and my original pieces.

569

:

As well just to add this

beautiful visual layer as well.

570

:

If you prefer to listen on

YouTube, the links to all of these

571

:

things will be in the show notes.

572

:

And also starting from today, the

brand new fresh Instagram feeds.

573

:

I'm not entirely sure of the handles

as I am recording this, but those

574

:

brand new handles will be in the

show notes, so please check them out.

575

:

Follow me.

576

:

I'm so grateful for you to be here.

577

:

I'd love to connect with you and your

support, honestly, your support in

578

:

being here and listening and tuning in.

579

:

It really does mean the world to me.

580

:

And I just, I can't wait to

go on this journey together.

581

:

So much is unfolding.

582

:

It's been three months since we

started this process, and it feels

583

:

like that was a lifetime ago.

584

:

Realizing that I'd sleep, walked myself

into a life that wasn't mine and the,

585

:

the original YouTube failing completely,

it has been three months, but an entire

586

:

lifetime has been lived of growth and

expansion over that time and completely

587

:

transitioning into this new artist era.

588

:

It is amazing and always blows my mind in

retrospect, just how much of our lives we

589

:

can shift in such a short amount of time.

590

:

How we can quantum jump from

where we are to that next chapter.

591

:

When we start giving ourselves

permission to come back to ourselves

592

:

and be authentic to ourselves, it

is amazing what we can achieve.

593

:

Even in those moments where we feel

like we have no idea what we're

594

:

doing, the magic is still happening,

and we're still coming home to that

595

:

even truer version of ourselves.

596

:

So I love you.

597

:

I cannot wait to see you in the next

episode and go on this journey with you.

598

:

Have a beautiful day, and

I will see you very soon.

Next Episode All Episodes Previous Episode

About the Podcast

Show artwork for House of Andrea
House of Andrea

Listen for free

About your host

Profile picture for Andrea Lee Matthies

Andrea Lee Matthies

Andrea Lee Matthies is an artist, photographer, and clairvoyant medium who creates portals for people to see and experience themselves more fully. Through her work, she blends creativity with clairvoyant insight, offering a unique perspective on what it means to thrive as a soul having a human experience.

As host of House of Andrea, Andrea brings together soulful conversations, channelling and subtle activations that invite listeners to awaken their intuition, dissolve self-imposed boundaries and step into the full spectrum of who they are.

Her approach is contemporary, vibrant, and deeply human - honouring both the beauty of the physical world and the unseen wisdom of spirit. Andrea’s mission is to help others feel seen, inspired and activated, so they can embody their own brilliance and frequency in everyday life.